I’ve known you for almost 29 years and we have had some ups and downs.
I am sorry for all the times I poked fun at you, doubted you and made you feel like you were worth nothing more than to be judged by people poking fun back at me.
I apologise for all the times I stood in the mirror and picked you apart bit by bit…”your nose has a bump and it looks weird, your belly looks bloated again today, why have you got those stretch marks, why do you have cellulite there when other girls don’t, why do your feet look like that, why does that bit jiggle and won’t tone no matter how hard you bash yourself through the gym each day?!”
You’ve given me large hips, stumpy legs with thunder thighs, a slow metabolism and a wiggly bum. All of which, I sometimes hate.
But please forgive me, it is really hard growing up in a world where everyone strives to be or look a certain way.
Oh, but wait. Could this be that I am ACTUALLY starting to accept you for you?! My hips will come in handy when I plan to have children. My bigger bum looks cute with my tinier waist and even more greater with my curvier thighs. Those thighs in question are strong, full of muscle and have allowed me to walk miles without feeling pain, they’ve allowed me to now run two half marathons resulting in great physical endurance and mental strength for those who may not be as lucky.
I can cope with the wiggly parts over the top that show as dimples through my skin because I know I am physically and mentally fit to cope with the amount of bashing I put you under each day at the gym or when I decide to run a spontaneous 10k on a Sunday.
My scars, marks and bumps have come with life experiences that have only shaped me into who I’ve become as a person today. You are strong, you are fit and you are healthy. We have lost weight, we have gained weight, we have lost fat and we have gained muscle…but in return you have remained strong and physically capable to pull me through anything.
I am sorry I have doubted you and it has taken me almost 29 years to figure this out. But you are perfect for me, and no matter what days we look at ourself and say “hey! I am a 10/10 today” or “I am having a wobbly day today and that is okay” I will always be your No. 1 fan.
I am who I am and if you’re reading this, you should feel this too!