I’ve recently realised that I wanted more diary-entry life updates on my blog so here we are, starting this blog on 1st August 2018 (and probably not finishing until a week later because I’m just one of those delayed bloggers), and spilling out what I have been up too the past month or so. I thought sharing my more personal updates to you on here will give you a better insight into who I am, especially if you don’t watch my YouTube vlogs. I’ve also had so much more feedback when I write a more personal blog than any of my others, maybe others can relate more? I’ve stopped putting pressure on myself to ‘keep up’ with blogging world and just post as and when I can. So keep on reading if you want to find out the reasons why…
So first things first, (and this is a big one!) I paid off my overdraft. I know this may sound like nothing to some and people come into money easily, but for me its a pretty big deal. I got an overdraft when I was at uni and just kept extending it. Anyone who has been to university knows how hard it is to survive on next to nothing each month. I wasn’t happy at myself for doing it but I refused to get a credit card and I made a pact to myself that I will never get one (still don’t have one!) I just don’t feel it’s necessary to have money that clearly isn’t yours. My parents have always taught me that if you don’t have the money for it, you can’t have it unless you work for it. I’ve always said that if I came into money the first thing I would do would be to get rid of THAT overdraft and start a fresh, so that’s exactly what I’ve done. It feels great to know I am out of the red and everything I now have is mine. It’s also going to leave me financially better off since I won’t be charged for having an overdraft facility. It was okay whilst I had it & for what I needed it for but It was not okay for a permanent solution.
So next is my new job and me going self employed. I feel like I did a whole post about this back in March but I just wanted to touch base with how it’s going. It’s going great, and I feel so amazing and free. It came to the point where I was worrying all the time and stressing about the smallest things at work. I couldn’t switch off from it, I found myself rushing home and feeling fed up and over exhausted at the end of each day. I couldn’t get anything done (unless it was a weekend) and my weekends were being filled with running errands instead of socialising. That was not okay. I’m now into week 3 in my part time work and I LOVE it. Even being able to go to the gym in the morning has changed my whole mindset and outlook on a lot of things and it feels bloody fantastic. I’ve felt so supported by family, friends and of course Ash into making all the decisions I have done so far this year, and it’s them that have got me feeling confident within myself to follow the path I am now on.
I guess this leads onto my next update: I feel a lot happier in my own skin. I recently did a post over on my Instagram about feeling confident in your own body. Now, I am not gonna sit here and say I feel bloody fantastic 24/7 365 days a year (or 366 on a leap year, but whose counting) but what I am saying is that I have learnt to love my wobbly parts, my stretch marks, and my bum dimples because that’s me and I ain’t changing for no one sista! I guess this would have a lot to do with being able to go to the gym in the morning and changing up my gym routine to tone or to workout for longer than I was used too. Whatever it is, it’s making me feel great and I urge anyone who feels down in the dumps to do the same! Confidence is a killer 😉
Excuse the flattened down hair and the wet look, I had just jumped out of the Lido on a sunny morning before heading off to work!
With feeling good about myself, I have recently taken to ASOS to change up my style and by god it’s worked. I have had so many compliments recently and without blowing my own trumpet I have felt bloody damn good about myself too. I don’t think there is ANYTHING and I mean ANYTHING at all wrong with feeling great about yourself as long as your not big headed about it. I think everyone should embrace the skin they are in as well as their sense of style as it’s what makes us unique. ASOS have so many great styles and it’s urged me to order a load of stuff I wouldn’t usually, try it on and realise that I look great in things I wouldn’t have even dreamed of buying before. Being able to say YES instead of “oh helllll no, that would look awful on me” has given me the confidence to step out of my comfort zone.
So there we have it, sorry for that very lengthy life update but as it’s been a while since I blogged I thought I owed it to you all to give you an insight into what’s been happening in my world. Let me know in the comments below what you thought and if it’s changed your mindset in any way!